(3/3) All I want is him. All I need is him. I do not know when I will be able to recover, I cannot follow the advice of my doctors, because I just gave up. I do not know when I will commit suicide or if I will do it. Because the only thing that keeps me going is the thought that we can be together again. I'll try to start drawing commissions, but I don't know when exactly. I'm sorry she's going through this because of me. I'm really hard right now. I just want to disappear

I am so sorry you are going through this! Please stay strong!! You are going through something deeply stressful and heavy on the heart, and you are reacting as normal as anyone else who is in grief and still in love, don't do anything rash and keep holding on to hope!