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(3/3) All I want is him. All I need is him. I do not know when I will be able to recover, I cannot follow the advice of my doctors, because I just gave up. I do not know when I will commit suicide or if I will do it. Because the only thing that keeps me going is the thought that we can be together again. I'll try to start drawing commissions, but I don't know when exactly. I'm sorry she's going through this because of me. I'm really hard right now. I just want to disappear
(2/3) My partner has become the sun in my dark world, and now I have lost him. I lost my sun and the meaning of my life. I need to give him time (to leave him alone and not write), which I couldn't give, and this is the most difficult thing for me. I can't get distracted by anything. I can't draw, I can't eat, I can't sleep. I've lost up to 44 kg and I look like a corpse. It's incredibly hard for me to go through this.
(1/3) He broke up with me on Christmas (December 25th) and all this time, I've been trying to get it all back. But because of the tragedy with his friend, I stopped meaning anything to him. While he is in mourning. He doesn't want to see me, talk to me, he doesn't want to be with me. And it really kills me. Since I was 14, I got into depression, which I didn't treat and it turned into a long depression. I have depressive episodes and I've always been fighting with myself and the past.
We broke up… 2 years of long-distance relationships. I was the whole world to man. He was the meaning of my life. I would have killed myself if it wasn't for him in my life. We broke up because of what had already happened. He changed and started a new life without me in it. He used to regret leaving me for the first time because of this. The second time, it repeats again. I'm shattered.. We wanted a happy life together. But he decided to be without me again. It's very hard for me to bear, I was addicted to him and now I'm completely alone.. I do not know how to live on. Suicidal thoughts have been with me for a couple of weeks now and I still can't believe it.
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