When I feel bad no one's ever around

willing to listen if you need to talk <3

I appreciate. This breackdown started with me finding out I made less money this mounth then I have to, I really strugling with mental health (bipolar) and working a "real" job is not an option now. I was so happy I could pay for rent, meds and stuff with my work as an artist, but I really fear that it was a temporary luck and it will end sooner then I have the strenght to find a job. I'm not good at social media, I may be not the best artist but I'm trying to improve... and at the end of the day I hate everything I do. I already lost to many friends because they got tired of me being a crybaby, I'm afraid to tell my bros that I feel like I need to end this all. So my friends are around only when I'm happy. Not often. Sorry for my english, it's the second language...